my new year
To avoid the average cliche of “this year is my year”, I do want to state that the beginning of this year has been pretty fabulous. I felt the gusto to cut someone out of my life after six years of a grueling relationship masked as a friendship, and while it kind of stings to cut someone out of my life completely, I do feel mature and self aware because of it.
I also have been making some wise choices physically. Typically I am driven solely by my competitive desire to look and perform best in athletics; which obviously usually turns out poorly. I recently was pulled to a Bikram Yoga class and realized some cool things about athletics and working out. If you don’t know what Bikram is, it’s a practice of yoga done in a literally hot room. The temperatures are approximately 100 degrees. It lasts ninety minutes in which you continue practicing poses in sets of three. It’s great, but what’s been really impressive to me, is the realization that I come to class as I am and I put forth the effort I have, and that’s enough. The instructors are fabulous, and they encourage participants to think in that manner. I’ll improve, but what I have to offer today, is just enough. I hope I can carry that with me into the new year and let go of some of my perfectionist tendencies.